I'm so glad i have this space to come to. It's my space, a corner that i share with everyone willing to see. It's good to come home. Best thing about blogging is, when you're feeling like you are dying inside, this jolts you back to existence. Here i track my progress,my consciousness regarding myself and my surroundings. And i can say, that i don't think i have changed much since the last time i posted.
Ok, perhaps a little, perhaps i'm walking the bad side right now. Experiences change people, and i have been devoid of good ones, but i do have a family that i love,and a best friend, my dog.
It has been almost 4 years since the accident, i barely haven't got out of the house.Everyone i knew just popped out their cocoon, living their lives, with all the blessings and other shit that comes with it.
And again i find myself spectating,waiting for a chance dreaming about a version on me that won't come to fruition with the present me tagging along. All my life i reinvented myself, over and over again. This time i find it is somewhat difficult.I just skipped too many lines,and i'm waiting for the page to change so i can start anew. But something tells me it won't be as easy to flip the switch again. The wiring is not new anymore, I hope you read this in the future, find it stupid and got yourself out of the hole you're currently in. Man up
In my birthday June 15th 2012 My Grandfather,David has died.
He was the Man who raised me.My Father and example.
He was true to his values and his beliefs until the end.He suffered from severe pain,due to his legbones for over than 40 years,and even then,he stood up and walked with the sound of his bones clashing,he always found the inner strenght to keep walking.
He was the kind of man that when you would look at him,you would see a mountain,an unshakable mountain,or a big Oak,with roots piercing the core of the earth embracing it firmly.Stuborn and strong.
He was an adventurer,in his youth he traveled a lot,went to places,that i today,only dream of going.
Fought other men wars to ensure his men lifes.
Led men by example,both in the battlefield or working in vineyards.
with his presence and altruism,amongst the comunity everyone respected him,young and old,even if they didn't like him,because of his frontality,they respected him and recognized him as one of the last Men with a true sense of dignity and valor.
He was just and firm.
Was one of the first and was the last Patriarch of the evangelical church,and when the brotherhood of men got shaken like bamboo trees,he stood,like an oak enduring through all adversity,and through his firmness he held things together.
Whenever i asked him something he would point me at his encyclopedia illustrated.At 3 years old he started working on the fields,he would tell me that he usually saw spitfires dashing through during the Second World war.He was light on his feet,and had a great stamina he would run miles and never get tired,always laughing always driven by his passions.
He exceled in everything he did,school,work,dedication,even saw a medal of exemplary behaviour.I still hope to cling and regret i haven't listened with more attention to his war stories,he would normally tell me the funnier ones,but still from his childs and from regular visitors that served with him the stories of bravery,of freedom,of his excelence.
His father Fortunato(fortunate one) was also self taught,and usually wrote criticism letters to Salazar in a period of fascism and dictatorship.And somehow they would never bother him,nor did the secret police come knocking on his door.
My father was 81 years old,he was born on 9 of August,Leo.
He never got the chance to really raise his children,he did 5 comissions,but yet,when my father didn't want me,he embraced me,and raised me as his own,and i am,i am my grandfather's child and i'll strive to be not a man like him,but a man like myself,capable on looking at his eyes on the afterlife with a smile,saying something like "I've become the man i strived to be since a kid pops,with the best of you and the best of me".
I was always talking about adventure,about life,how short life his.
And i know that on the 15th of June,my birthday,the day he died on his feet,despite his condition he gave me his true gift,a reminder,a message.
One time i asked him
"Grandfather,how did you deal with fear?"
He started laughing and said:
-"Fear? there is only one way to deal with fear.You have to abolish it."
One of his favourite Bible stories was David and Goliath
He gathered on his life the right equipment and spiritual luggage to the Journey he's in now.
And what an adventure it must be ^^
Above all he led by the Father He was to me.
Lessons never to be forgotten.
So,where to start? YES March will be the month for Slipstreamers,won't get into details until everything is printed and i have a go from the guys organizing the event.I can walk!!!Well,sort of.The handicap is more than apparent,and i still use my"crouches'? Still on a act of sheer will(despair) while i was doing some exercises i felt inside it was the time to take the first steps and i did,i screamed and laughed,people called me crazy,that's not news,but i felt the fire again you now?Regaining control of my body after so much struggle is a freaking awesome feeling,overshadowing the weird way i walk and my,a lot,shorter leg issue.
Been advancing in tr3lepheteria,be sure to check out prometheusdesign.blogspot.com for the new stuff.
And watched a wonderful movie,whose history develops in tokyo,it's a "interchange" of the Spanish center of culture and Japan.I highly recommend it.
Also be sure to check my Girlfriend's blog,it's gaining a lot of attention in just 2 months,and i'm proud of the work she's doing it,it's her passion and it shows.
Well today is the 4th month since the accident.
Everything is going ... WELL!
Almost 4 months into a beautiful relationship,with a mindblowing smart,cunning ,creative,Beautiful Fox called Soraia,who inspired me to let go of my cane and start working with a sword.
HOOYYYYYY!!!!!!!!!!!
Presenting tan tan tan tan tan tan tan tan TANNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN
you better check it.. or else.. i'll know... and trust me....
YOSHH!!
i'm into some heavy projects,at first i was doing the promo to Spank Lord,after showing my additional animation,they asked me to be in charge of the videoclip,i said..Fck yeah!
Of course,all my work is free of charge,it's just for the experience and challenge.And it's a good way to push the boundaries of what i would normaly do for myself,and explore new ideas and concepts.
Also i was "boarded" by some friends who are the heads in a artistic event,they asked me if i wanted to participate with an photographic exposition,since slipstreamers didn't came out due to money issues,and they are willing to print my work,March is the month.A year later since i talked about it,the good thing,a lot of photos were taken since that time,and a overhaul of the original idea made me much happier in terms of self realization.
It's not that i didn't had anything solid to show to the world,it didn't gave away the feeling of completion.
Since a full circe has passed and many stones have been stepped(Lol,get it?no? ok no problem) I know in my gut this is the Fist,the spearhead i need to get into more serious work.
Sooooo,Slipstreamers on March,footage of the event and poster coming soon,for my 3D work,check out prometheus,i'll try to update it regularly.And YEAHH almost forgot,in my spare time,i started learning Japanese.
Oyasumi nasai motha faaaaaaakaaaaassssss!!!!
Well,i've made it to physiotherapy.In a few hours it will be my 3rd day,my muscles are sore,but it's good to feel those stings and heat.Some remaining bone fragments still bother me,and my ankle movement is severily limitated.
I have to do this until December 31st 2012,at least it's what they tell me.Of course i don't want to wait that long,there's so much to do,spending another 11 months like this is not my idea of "road to fulfillment".More like another of life's test of "try to be zen dude".I'm kicking hard,already have 2/4 of the money needed for my long desired trip,it would be cool to be up and running in June,so,i'm pushing all i can,and tempering it with fighting spirit and positive atitude.Doesn't look right now,but it's because my energy reserves for the day are almost empty.
Also this March i'll put up the long delayed photography exposition,got a sweet deal for printing with other artists in a new cultural event,with digital painting,live music etc.Would be cool if i could sell some work.
Started working again with 3D,cleaning up the sides,taking off the rust,soon i'll update prometheusdesign.blogspot.com ,perhaps i'll make a complete overhaul of the blog's layout,i don't like that logo.Or do a new one on tumbrl.
And that's it for substancial news,have been thinking about some stuff about my past,but firmly fighting in the present for the next adventure.Life is short,but you can take a large quantity out of it.
A lot has happened since i last posted.Almost lost my leg,but two cirurgical interventions later,the process of reabilitation is underway.
Sure,it was a great fall and a setback,but it allowed me to experience things i wouldn't otherwise.When you shut yourself out of the world,something rises from the depths of oneself.
"If you are positive,then Nature shall conspire for you"
In the need of putting up a 3D portfólio online,i'm underway in the creation of a new blogspot page.
Dedicated only to the subject it will help me make continue this personal blog in the format it was supposed to be. The layout and first posts will be up during the afternoon.
